THE GOOD, THE BAD, THE UGLY

When I was little I learned not to judge people. Mostly because you have no idea why they do what they do. But it seams the older I get it's harder and harder not to.
Where ever I am, whatever I'm doing, I'm associated with a certain crowd. I'm in a circle. I feel my self looking at those outside the circle funny. I don't mean to I swear. I wish I new when it started.

Seriously, I think it started in private school. Lol it kinda sucks to be judged. My middle school cost 34,000 dollars to attend. Ferraris were picking kids up after school left and right. I had no problem with my fathers Nissan Altima. I kinda thought it was fly actually. We had the best hoopdi on the block I'll tell you that. But those little bastards made me feel some sort of way about it. When I went to that school I thought those kids were perfect and that's how smart children where suppose to walk, talk, play and think. I think that's when I began to harbor the idea of judging.

Even still I knew it wasn't something to make a habit of. I think when I left that school I balanced back out. I chilled out and just let people form their own impressions on me, from actually getting to know them.

After switching high school I think I might have resorted back to my private school ways of thinking. When I switched it was private school all over. It sucked. It's sad and safe to say most of the black kids tried to fit in with the white kids. It was kinda pathetic because people should want to be around you for who you really are inside. Regardless of how hard they tried they were always looked at as outsiders. I think I picked up this bad habit from them just as I did in private school.

When did I first realize this? When my friend tweeted this ...

"Yesterday when we were getting high, you were invited, you would of liked it."

My reaction was like wow, smh blah blah blah. I was disappointed. Not about the actual smoking part, cause even though I don't approve I could care less. I just was like why is she publishing her business. At least to me, I don't think that's something the public needs to know. But needless to say I felt extremely dumb when I heard the song she quoted. Then I began to shake my head at my own damn self.Have to drop bad habits like these.

I'm happy I have friends who help me learn and realize things about myself. Positivity comes in all shapes and sizes. Thank you friend. Apologies go out to you.

Sub-thoughts{Kool aid, Heat stroke, Pool/Beach, Work}