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Today started to be a good day. I spoke to my mother about pursueing
my dreams and taking care of business. Handling and prioritizing my
life. Becomeing a man and taking on responsability. Such a uplifting
conversation. It got me so motivated. I started my college supliments
and worked on my essay. Later I took my girlfriend out to the
movies. I got home at 1:34. All the lights were on. I walk in my
mothers room. Bed messed up, tv on with the remote and bottle cap on
the bed. I walk past her bathroom and noticed the door cracked. I
slowly push and found my mother passed out with her pants to her
ancles. Not surprised I picked her up and got her into bed. I walk
to my room with my head down. I sat on my bed to reflect on my day.
I said to myself "if this is what I have to look up to, I'm in
trouble.". So I started to think, who do I know that's well rounded?
Who is determined and is self motivated? Who do I know who has self
respect, who is a born leader, who I would want my future kids to look
up to? Only one person came to mind, myself. I am who I want to
strive to be. I look up to myself. The image I've made myself out to
be in my head is who I ultimatly want to be someday. If I could
actually become the man as I see myself being I will emensly serpass
all exapectations. This was a realitization point for me. At this
point In my life, i can look back and say things begain to click.
Gears begain to turn. At this point it was clear to me that I had
been looking in all the wrong places for help. The man I needed to
talk to was here with me all along. When I finaly sat down and had a
talk with him it was surprisingly short. He told me "a lot of times
people will tell you they do things for someone or because of someone
or In honor of someone, but truth be told, if u can't even do these
small things for yourself what's the point in worring about doing it
for others. You help yourself first, and then help others help
themselves."

Im not positive where I'm going but I know whatever comes and
confronts me along my journy I will overcome.