Kanye West - The Lost Tapes (Chi Town Mixtape) - 01 - Hold On Remix (ft ...

Everything is so blurry now a days..

Its hard to tell my haters from
my helpers right now. Its like y'all
are all speaking the same
language. The language
sounding like the white
fuzz on the TV. Regardless of
what either of y'all are saying,
honestly I'm not trying to hear all
that right now. Just let me do me.
If you a rider, then lets go. If not,
hop off the ban wagon please. Thank you.

A Tribe called quest - Find a Way

Childs Play

Sometimes I like to write my thoughts on pieces of wrinkled paper. I fold my paper up into tiny squares and put my secrets into my little pocket. You know the smaller pocket in your jeans you don't know what is used for? Well that's whats I use it for. I hide my mental memos in there like they're gold and my pocket is my treasure chest. Call me a pocket pirate. I guard my gold with my hook. Occasionally i stingily share single shillings with my crew of henchmen. I ponder and contemplate whether i will ever open my chest permanently for the public or should I continue to feed them spoonful at a time. You cant feed a glutton and expect them to taste spice from spice. You jive turkeys aren't ready. So like a parent I guess I'll just have to hide the Christmas presents until December 25Th.

Get out my way

RAISE YOUR RIGHT HAND! LEFT HAND HERE.
LISTEN CLOSELY BECAUSE I'M ONLY SAYING THIS ONCE!
REPEAT AFTER ME...

I WILL NOT BE FORCED TO CONFORM
I WILL NOT LIVE WITH REGRETS
I DO NOT LIVE IN THE LAND OF "I WISH"
I DICTATE MY FUTURE
I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL
I WILL WORK MY ASS OFF
I WILL MAKE IT
I WILL BE GREAT
I DICTATE MY FUTURE
I DICTATE MY FUTURE
I DICTATE MY FUTURE

And say it like you mean it...

IM RICH B*TCH

Do you ever feel like all is going wrong and things cant get any better at all? Like you don't have to many if any real friends who ACTUALLY understand you?
Like there is NO ONE you can trust or confide in anymore?
When I find myself in situations like this I often catch myself wishing to be in a new situation with unnecessary material possessions. Looking to give me a temporary fix, a hit, to get away from it all. Because it is clearly too much for me to handle right? It took me some years to realize God wont put anything on my plate i cant eat and finish scraping the plate. I used to really bug when I got down and felt like I was all alone. But now, no more pity parties. A huge part of me realizing things can always be worse and to stop complaining, is this man DAVE CHAPPELLE. This man hit a all time low after receiving the ultimate material fix. What was it 50 mill for his show? His life was a wreck after this. He said it was too much to handle, that he couldn't tell his friends from a foe. He, actually didn't have ANYONE he could trust...and yet he still overcame this hard time in his life.
When i think about how he prevailed this hardship i know that any little problem or hard time I'm faced with can be handled. Thank you for helping me know that Mr. Chappelle, thank you...

Under the Influence

You don't need to be high too feel good
Sometimes I wish I could get high
But then I know I never would
Some people get high and say you should
If I could get high I bet I'd feel real good
I know that brown bear said it was bad for wood
But if I could I'd burn it down just so I could
Could get high n fly with the fishes
And maybe even Chill with the big titied bitches.
But when I come down I'll feel so low
Lower than I would ever be willing to go
So without knowing I so hate getting high
I say fuck it
I don't need drugs to unlock my mind.

OFFICIAL TISSUE

So when i first started this blog it was looking like it was just going to be about poetry but Idk I feel like this thing is a way to share anything that moves me with any and everyone.
So with that said i was shopping online and i came across these Tribal Printed Harem Pants and Ive been looking for a pair for men so i could get them. I'm kinda tight i came across them for females first but hey, it is what is is. All in all, these are official Tissue.

STORMTROOPERS

AAAhhh yess I am happy to say that I am graduating high school this year, whoop whoop!! Yea, cheers and pop bottles. Not only I, the whole class of 2010, so shout out to all my seniors out there, congrats!! I am happy to celebrate the commencement of this chapter of my life. A lot of things are going well this year and hopefully many more will come. This year has been tough so far... As everyone knows money is pretty tight now a days so me and my boys have been grinding. During Christmas break we hit Hollywood and landed a part in the newest Star Wars movie. Its not coming out for some time but its about these three Stormtroopers who get fed up with Dark Vadors BS. I don't want to give to much away, but big ups to my boys Orange drink Gillie and Bombs away Boivert, we been out here.

Wiz Khalifa-Name On A Cloud/Wussup(HD)

Been listening to him A LOT lately..
i know its not new but i catch my self blasting this song TOO often

CARTONS

LMFAO idk what it is but i cant get over my cartoons. i love them. That's all i really watch.
i cant stand theses dumb ass shows they got on TV now a days. Like its crazy. MTV=trash
BET=trash VH1= trash. I'm committed to cartoon network and nickelodeon, like I'm in a relationship
with these channels. Even though i watch those channels they be bullshitting sometimes too. Whack ass shows like
ICarly and Drake and Josh. AAhhhhh i get tight. This post is to acknowledge some real ass cartoons that could hang with the back in the day cartoons:

Chowder
The Grim adventures of Billy and Mandy
The Mighty Bee
Invader Zim
The Boondocks
Family Guy
Spongebob
Jimmy Neutron
Fosters home for Imaginary Friends
Courage the Cowardly dog
Ed, Edd and Eddie

...Please let me know if i forgot any..

kanye west you know ft john legend, b-lo and white boy

When I was little I remember telling my self I wasn't like everyone
else. I'm not trying to put anyone down or anything but I'm not
average. No better or worse just not the same. When I was nine I had
a conversation with Marcarthur about my future. I wasn't poor or close to
it, but I remember seeing my parents struggle to to get by.

What black family doesn't ?

But the point of me bringing this up is I vividly remember this promise
I made to myself. I promised myself to never get comfortable or be
satisfied with settling. My father taught me to go after and snatch
my dreams out the sky. I'm not fucking with y'all. Ya ll meaning you
scary ass people who are afraid of failing. I don't expect to reach
success early so I won't stop trying until I'm at the top. I expect
to fall on my face a few times, and I'm OK with that. I'm fine with
working hard to go and get somewhere in life. I think I said what I
needed to say. I don't want to rant.


You know
I just want you to know.
I just want you to know.
You know
I just want you to know.

This boy here finna blow
You know

I dont have game...Im just me

Ant no sunshine when she's gone. I'm sad u left and the gods kno. So
they cry with me. Rain rain go away bring my baby soon I pray. And
when you arive the clouds part and the sun shines. Wet puddles
evaporate and dew is Left on the grass. The day u return is a joyfull
occasion for all. I miss u. Plz make the sun shine again... Soon


Goodmourning

Kinda rough but wateva

U pick on me. Leach like u drain me
Thinking I've exerted all my energy
Throughout my day u prove me wrong
U take and take and take
U use my mistakes against me.
Corner me with my own gilt
Cause me the worst type of pain
Regret
It's not my fault
I'm only learning
But no, u hold no punches
Bashing me with hit after hit
Until I fall to your feet
Hold your head with pride
Gloating in your victory
Not knowing I threw in the towel way b4 the bell rang
Only I know your weakness
But I could never bring myself to use it
Something like a low blow, I'd feel less of myself
My love for you keeps me quiet
But soon my Patience will run short
And I say now, fear that day
Because not with punches will I bring u to your knees
Just with words , words of your own
The words you've made me less of a man with
In years u buy me out
But with my knowledge I destroy you
Your weapons seam so frivolous
U have no big guns
My silence had diminished them all
Up to date, you have all the battles underneath your belt
But the day I stand up for what I feel is right....
Is the day the war is mine...

No Tittle ...

Today started to be a good day. I spoke to my mother about pursueing
my dreams and taking care of business. Handling and prioritizing my
life. Becomeing a man and taking on responsability. Such a uplifting
conversation. It got me so motivated. I started my college supliments
and worked on my essay. Later I took my girlfriend out to the
movies. I got home at 1:34. All the lights were on. I walk in my
mothers room. Bed messed up, tv on with the remote and bottle cap on
the bed. I walk past her bathroom and noticed the door cracked. I
slowly push and found my mother passed out with her pants to her
ancles. Not surprised I picked her up and got her into bed. I walk
to my room with my head down. I sat on my bed to reflect on my day.
I said to myself "if this is what I have to look up to, I'm in
trouble.". So I started to think, who do I know that's well rounded?
Who is determined and is self motivated? Who do I know who has self
respect, who is a born leader, who I would want my future kids to look
up to? Only one person came to mind, myself. I am who I want to
strive to be. I look up to myself. The image I've made myself out to
be in my head is who I ultimatly want to be someday. If I could
actually become the man as I see myself being I will emensly serpass
all exapectations. This was a realitization point for me. At this
point In my life, i can look back and say things begain to click.
Gears begain to turn. At this point it was clear to me that I had
been looking in all the wrong places for help. The man I needed to
talk to was here with me all along. When I finaly sat down and had a
talk with him it was surprisingly short. He told me "a lot of times
people will tell you they do things for someone or because of someone
or In honor of someone, but truth be told, if u can't even do these
small things for yourself what's the point in worring about doing it
for others. You help yourself first, and then help others help
themselves."

Im not positive where I'm going but I know whatever comes and
confronts me along my journy I will overcome.

The rules

What we tell em? It's all about progress.
How we getting there? We climbing that ladder!
Where we going? To the tippy.
When we get to the tippy tip what we gone do? Look for higher ground.
Who we stepping on to get there? Whoever want it can get it.

Those are our rules...remember that.

Written by a good friend of mine... -__-

At 17 years old i would never have thought a man would be the center of my problems.
Everything wholesome, natural and good in my life. Has been second guessed, divided and cut into two.
The inconsistency with relationships, the inability to trust, stem from you.
You make me so angry, because we are nothing alike, yet you have given me life.
Birthed something so beautiful, yet you want nothing to do with me, i am astonished, baffled and confused.
You have created a monster out of me.
Full of vehement, and resentment, why do you make me hate you.
Why did i get delt this hand.
In which i lose every game.
My poker face i can no longer contain, thinking I'm strong when i can barely keep my composure.
And getting older, you would think this shits over.

Something my good friend wrote, check it out -__-

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the game remains the same
I still get burn without trying to get burned
the sidelines still roar
the cheerleading team still has some of the biggest whores
&+ I'm still the man
I look in the crowd &+ wave my hand
&+ ５ wave back at me
its funny how they never see
ironic enough neither do I
which one did I look in the eye
I must admit I dnt play fair , but they make it so easy you can't blame me
the one in the middle knows just how to please me
but the shortest one is the realest one &+ we connect
&+ number 3 I might leave she reminds me of my ex
2 minutes left in the game &+ I glance in the stands , number 6 just came
my attention is gone . which one to keep
my heart is soft I dnt wanna see them weep
but now its overtime &+ I'm not one to creep
so play tic tac toe . another game just to let one go
so caught up &+ distracted by their features I never stopped to think these beautiful creatures have needs
&+ right now I'm tryna get recruited by an all star league &+ have some fun
then I realized I've been playing the game all wrong because the winner is only one .

A long time over due

Now did I break your heart or did you break mines?
See over the time I kinda can't remember
Was it when I cheated and then told you it was over
Or was it when you first lied in September
Things start to get really fuzzy
I sit back and feel bad about what I did to you
But then I get mad and remember the things you didn't do to me
Hot summer nights I sat on the edge of my bed thinking
When I thought I was in love
I even wrote letters so I could remember
But i don't know, I did a lot of bad things
things I'm notttt to proudedd of
Most of them sit in a sock at the bottom of my hamper.
Lol, nah but seriously I can't remember
Did I break your heart or did you break mines?
Was it when I gave you the cold shoulder and walked past you
Day after day, not saying one word not even just hey
Or was it when I realized you wernt the same person
You used to be
Not the same laugh not the same cry
You wernt the same girl and I grew out of that guy
I felt like you switched it up, jumped ships on me
SO I'M SAYING IT RIGHT NOW RIGHT HERE
You wernt honest with me.

Soooooo I meaaannnnnn. Fuck it now. Idc anymore,
Every thing I knew with you is out the door
I say you broke mines and I kept it a secrete
But I blew up and erupted then snapped yours into pieces.